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Imagine each day your bank account is deposited for 86400 cents, and after 12 midnight, all will be gone and a same amount will be deposited again. How will you spent the money wisely?

It is just like everyone have 86400 seconds per day, no one will get more or less of it. So how will we spent our time?

I have not been thinking about these types of question at all when i am having my life in high school..then i am still enjoying my life at my first year in Uni...However, one particular things happened to me and it told me nothing can be taken for granted in your life.

Hei! If u dun plan your own life, others will plan for you.

So I started out asking myself, what do I really want in my life?

The answer is simple: I want to be success, and I want to be rich.

Most people around me always thought I had a rich family... Is it really true? I doubted ...However, one things for sure, my parent is very rich in knowledge!

For examples, u wanna know how to deal with people, ask my mom! She had dealt with all kinds of people from worst to the best! And trust me, all people likes her very much..

If you want to build and design a building, go ask my dad! He can comes up with any designs within a couple of minutes and he knows more than to build a house.

So, for my sister, she is good...she is really good..and she is working as an interior designer now...however, she hates her boss..LOL...because she said her boss is so unfair...come on, we all know life is always not fair! There will always be loser and winner in our life. As i said, you are so freaking good..why do you still wanna stay in that position. You keep telling me u wanna strife for your success...and I asked you, what do you want in your life?

I always remembered when I was young that time, my mother tell me that i need to set my goals....but mother.........At my age...about 14 or maybe 15? Are you kidding me? I may tell you I want to be the most professional gamer ....but whenever I recalled back, what my mother told me was so damn true!

So, Sis. What is your goals? if you don't have one, go get one, if u got one, then reach for it. I am telling u this because i don't want you to stuck at where you are now and run the rat race like all people does. You can do more, and I am very sure about it! You are a great designer, so design your own life !

bro....yea...bro...u are dotaing so much....and to tell you honestly, you can stop dota already...you will never be as pro as me...HAHAHAHAHA!!!! Joking joking! You are very smart...and in fact, your skills are much better than me now.

You are 16 now..and you have a very beautiful girlfriend! Great! but hope that won't be a distraction for your studies...hahaha!

And for my dear dear, U are totally stress out.. you are working as part time (almost full time) and yet you need to maintain your school works. I know it is hard for you to hang on with both works and school...but listen to me, you are almost done with it.. a little days more to go for your holidays. You always know I am very proud of you that you are a girl who makes your own decision and independent. You made your decision to work as part time to relieve the burden of your parent. So go for it! Of course it is tough for you! Don't u dare forget, you are now carrying part of the burden now!

Tough times don't last, tough people do!

So I think everyone knows about my girl...and of course, i don't need to introduce her anymore.

I know among our friends, they have a lots of opinions and thoughts up on their head of what had happened.. Lazy to explain..For that guy, u know why she leaves you right? but i didn't blame you for begging sympathy and telling stories...after all, when life goes bad, loser tend to blame others for the problem...

Last question for people who read my blogs

Any guys, ladies or girls have tolerance to a guy who hits a girl?

Vote and give comments please..

For me, of course not! i will not tolerate any guys who hit girls...

外公老了

放假了，终于可以回到家里好好的享受。。哈哈。。
回到家，当然是家里比较爽啦！吃的也特别好吃！

还有最开心的就是可以跟外公聊聊天。。虽然外公已经老了许多。。也不怎么说话了。。
可是就是看得出外公会其实一直在回忆以前的的事情。。。

“外公！还记得我吗？”
外公皱着眉头看着我说 ： “不记得了。。”
“外公！我是楚浩啊！”
“哦。。楚浩啊。。”
“外公，你刚睡醒啊？睡得好吗？”
“睡得好~睡得好~~”
外公一脸满意的样子。。我就坐在外公的面前静静的看着外公。。
“外公！我读书现在放假啊！所以可以回来。”
“是啊。。放假啊。。。嗯。。” 外公看着我后面的墙壁。。好像在想着什么似的。。
之后就说： “读书好啊。。读书很好。。。”
我就开心的说： “对啊，读书很重要啊外公~”
外公又望向我背后的墙壁，好像又回忆起从前了。。。
。。。。。。。。。。。
“从前我啊，就没有读到什么书。。家里穷。。父母啊也早早就去世了。。。”
我就静静的听外公跟我说。。。其实。。。外公还记得以前发生的事情呢！

“外公！不要紧！你看你没有读到书，可是你很厉害！你没有读过什么书，可是你的孩子全部都很成功！”

外公就笑笑的看着我。。。很欣慰的笑容。。。

“外公！你还记得你有多少个孩子吗？” 我问道。。

外公就皱起眉头一直都想不起。。

“外公，你还记得你有多少个儿子跟女儿吗?”

外公依然想不起。。

“外公！你有七个孩子啊！两个儿子，五个女儿！”

外公笑笑说 ：“哦。。。是啊。。。是啊。。。”

之后就静静的看着外公。。

外公笑道： “我啊，老了啊。。都八十八岁了。。”

我说道：“时间过得很快啊外公!一下子你的孙子都长大了。。”

“是啊。。时间真的过得很快。。” 外公又好像想回以前的事情了。。

“外公！你还会骑你的motor吗？”

“我都老了，不敢骑了。。” 外公笑笑的回答我。。。

“外公啊，你还记得你以前经常载我还有阿璇去兜风的吗？”

外公笑笑的看着我。。“记得。。。记得。。。”
自从外公骑电单车然后车祸受伤后，就不再骑他的电单车了。。。

“外公啊！你还记得怎样打麻将吗？”

外公就说 ：“老了咯。。通通忘记了。。。”

“那么外公你记得以前新港家的前面有开麻将馆的。。你还记得吗？”
说到这里，外公静了下来看着地上。。。我知道，外公他老人家想到了以前发生的事情。。

“赌博不好啊。。不要赌博。。赌博啊，你赢了钱过后就会想要再赌。。到最后等下通通输掉。。”

“是啊，外公，赌博不好啊。。” 我笑笑的看着外公。。外公就看着我点头。。。。

知道这件事情的只有我们几个。。还有阿姨跟舅舅。。看得出，外公这么多年来都记得这件事情。。。想当年，他应该很自责吧。。。。我很想告诉他，他的孩子都没有怪过他老人家。。。

“外公！多一下子就可以吃饭了！等下我再叫你！”

外公吃了晚饭，就去看电视去了。。。到了九点多，他老人家就去睡觉了。。。

我看见他躺在床上，就进去看看。。

“外公。。你会很热吗？”
看见风扇没有开。。就问问外公。。

外公皱着眉头说：“很热啊。。。”
“外公，我帮你开风扇....你没有开风扇，当然热咯。。”

之后我就拿起一本书本帮外公扇风。。。

我对着外公笑笑的问道： “外公，有没有比较凉一点？”

外公对着我点点头笑。。“楚浩。。谢谢你。。”

我就看着外公笑笑。。。
外公，您怎么跟我说谢谢了呢？如果没有你，哪来的我们？
看着你脸上的皱纹，每一条都说明着自己一路走来的人生。。。
你那几句简简单单的话，对我来说，是无价的。。。
因为我知道，长辈们说的话，都不会骗人的。。。
他们吃的盐比我们吃的米还多。。。
我们凭什么跟他们顶嘴？


敬老尊贤
有多少年轻人会呢？
家是温暖的
有多少人知道呢？

What comes around goes around

It's been so long that i had actually came here to give a good look at my blog already.... It is such a funny things that i came a long way and only i realize what meant to be happened must let it happen. So why I said so ?

Previously, the chapter of my life is sooooooooo upset by myself(ppl who know me should know what had happened), and it happened to be at somewhere around CNY...and I am glad that I didn't make my family worried about me as I think I can handle this myself and stand up as a man... And I admit that it is my fault and I know i am so immature at that time. And a big thanks to all my friends around me as they supported me throughout the way although I am not supposed to get sympathy...

At that moment of time, I would always think about why I am getting all those bad luck in my life ? Why I am the one who suffered so much and yet I keep on dwelling about the past... I blamed everything around me... and yet I know i need a huge personality change in myself...

I am a hyperactive and talkative person by nature... I am mischievous, and playful all the time. So that's why I am always very "special" during my primary school..always special seated by my teacher...hahaha....that is a part of my life which I MISS SOOO MUCH!!! so by somehow, I am the one who get the most rotan by my teacher too...haha...but i am sincerely grateful to them...as it taught me well!

Well, I went to secondary school....and it is quite impressed.... I don't get good grades along the way...I can get it, but I just lazy to get good grades (people who are damn smart are lazy) hahahahahaha... But somehow i got lots of beautiful girlfriends...LOL.... that is why almost ppl in secondary school thought me as a playboy! hahaha...somehow, i dun give a shit to what they think about me, because they don't know the fact, they only have a very low judgment about others and they talk cock along the way...I refer this people as "lowlife" in my dictionary...
So I had almost 5 girls(if u wanna calculate) , among the 5 , one is been sabotaged by my friend who eventually end up in an accident (well, somehow he's been punished by u-know-who)
And the rest works well...but all these relationship thingy took me in the run for about 8 years in my life....(so i am quite a GURU now...hahahaha)
It is like a marathon.... very tiring....very immature...don't know what i am doing....and the proudest things of all is the girls all come by themselves...and I am extremely unhappy about it as it made me a person who don't know how to cherish people around me....
So what comes around goes around...eventually I end up getting broken relationship....but somehow i keep on trying... and eventually i got a 3 years with one girl....and this had changed my personality ....
I am kinda guy who happy-go-lucky ... talkative...very active....so by nature...i got lots of friends( i mean "girls" friend) So these had made her very unhappy about it and we almost get into fight and quarrel with trivial matters...And the trust level of her to me is so low that eventually I had been required to talk to boys only...haha...I didn't blame her for that.... and I had a huge personality shift from hyperactive to hyper-passive... i don't attend gathering, I don't go out with friends....so in the end, I am with myself...

So, the 3 years process i just dun wanna talk about it...ppl who knew me know what i had been through... that is enough of it...and I eventually think that everything happened for a reason...I been through hell with myself....struggling with pain ...... my emotional level is damn low...I can easily go clubbing, smoking, get drugs...but i know that is damn foolish...so I try out a different ways...I start questioning myself...what i want in my life? I want a change, I dun wan myself to be so dull.... I wan my old self back...I need my confident level back...I need a major change....

So I did a great turn...first, I change from Engineering to Finance... I like finance. but I don't get good grades (what for? I focus more on what i learn and smart people are damn lazy)
And I started to look into what problems i have...so I want a change...a change to better life....I get to read books, get a mentor to guide me....start to discipline myself...

So eventually it took me a great hell to overcome myself.. it took a great deal to change my old-self which had been deeply scripted in my heart. It wasn't easy...but then the results that it produced is so soothing...I am having a new life, a new mind...

So I think that everything happened for a reason...go face it, make a change, we may fail but i don't think it is a failure, I think there are no failure, only results ...

I face upon my faith...and eventually good things is coming now... I regain my personality....and i gain a lot more than i thought i would have get...hahaha..that is something which I will not expect at any rate...I doubt no one knew about it...haha...as i had kept in myself...

however, I think dare to change and dare to fail...learn from mistake, and move on faster...I learn and i change..and eventually i am doing great now....and i will show that people who don't get good grades can be a success too...hahaha...I always believed in this!

孤儿院一日游

礼拜天天去孤儿院当了半天的教师。。

到了那里，一进门，左手边是婴儿房，好奇之下，便走过去望了进去。。
第一眼看见的情形。。只有“OMG，Holyshit，WTF，yamgong" 来形容。。
百多个婴儿在里面睡着躺着。。都是那些不负责任的父母留下来的。。
之后听了一下briefing，就在一群小孩子的围绕下走到了图书馆。。
图书馆的房间不大，图书馆的隔壁是个会议室。。

就有一位小孩自己跑来牵我的手，好吧，就让我带着这位孩子吧。。。
这孩子名字叫Isham..很庆幸的是，他是个很乖巧的孩子，叫他读书他就读书，叫他画画，他就画画。。里面的孩子有很乖的，有好玩的，有顽皮的，有凶猛的，有脾气古怪的。。可是这些孩子里面，有的是父母不要他们，有的是被父母abuse的，所以被逼分开。。是不是父母不负责任的关系，造就了孩子们今天的样子？ 

这些可怜的孩子，从小就在没有父母的环境下长大。。这不是他们要的，是他们的父母不负责任跟无知的行为，使得他们走投无路。。有的甚至不知道怎么办好，结果弄到现在精神恍恍惚惚的。。。唉。。。善哉善哉。。。

我带着我所照顾的小孩。。教他读书画画。。他也很乖很听话。。我说一，他就做一，乖乖的听我读故事书给他听。。乖乖的看我画画。。。我真是搞不懂，为什么这么乖巧的孩子，他的父母却选择要放弃他？

他只要求我做两件事。。。第一就是："Saya nak main game" 第二就是: "Saya nak gula"

他喜欢我背着他到处乱跑陪着他玩耍。。他喜欢吃糖果。。。就这么简单。。。为什么他的父母却做不到这么简单的事情呢？

虽然我那天生着病，不过我还是背着他到处乱跑。。。听到他那开心的笑声，真的什么都无所谓了。。。只可惜当天书包里面没有买到什么糖果。。只剩下一两粒NanoNano糖。。唉。。早知道就买一堆糖果了啦！！！！

那些选择抛弃孩子的大人们总是会有一千个，一万个理由来帮自己辩护。。省点吧。。it doesn't matter anymore。。在你们选择放弃这些孩子们的时候，你们就是不负责任了。。说什么有苦衷，有什么难言之苦。。通通都是BullShit（牛粪）。。。

如果当初不想有孩子，就做好安全措施，如果不小心生下来，就要负起责任来养育他们。。。不要虐待他们。。。好好的爱他们。。。如果真的养不起。。。就去找户好人家，求他们收养你的孩子。。。虽然给人家收养，你还是不负责任，但是至少，你让他们可以拥有家庭的温暖。。。可以在正常的环境下成长。。。

很庆幸的是。。。我在一个很好的家庭里长大。。有疼爱我的父母，有位粗鲁的姐姐（哈哈），还有位听话的弟弟。。。能够有一个很幸福的家庭，真的要珍惜。。。珍惜这两个字，说起来容易，但是做起来难。。在现今（现金

）的社会，许多人都把别人对你的好当成理所当然了吧？翻翻报纸，就可以看到许多年轻人离家出走，许多大人为了争家产而搞到家里鸡犬不宁，兄弟姐妹一拍两散。。。这又何必呢？没听说过家和万事兴吗？读了那么多书，吃了那么多米，头脑还是那么简单吗？

有家就每天搞离家出走，无知幼稚的行为，弄到家人登报寻人启事，才会回来。。很爽咩？很过瘾吗？一群无聊无脑的年轻人。。干脆弄到自己人间蒸发更好！世界多一个你，浪费国家粮食，少一个你根本不足为奇。。

那些为了争家产的更可笑！兄弟姐妹自相残杀，上法庭告来告去，不然就是翻脸不认人。。。你们是不是Jiak Bah Boh Si Zuo (吃饱没事做）?? 还是钱太多？钱多就捐出来做点善事积德福音后代。。别搞到让大家看笑话罢了。。真是一群幼稚的成年人。。

随便吧。。whatever...只希望在孤儿院里的孩子，能够健健康康长大。。长大后，希望他们不要像他们那些没用的父母。。。要做个对社会有贡献的人。。。

   这位就是Isham。。他的眼神。。真的很伤心。。

家人与亲戚

唉。。现在的社会。。真是乱七八糟。。翻翻报纸，不是女的离家出走，就是男的要跟家人脱离关系。。。
真是不知所为的年轻人。。。。

在整理着自己照片时，看到了去旅行拍的照片。。不管怎么看。。。不管怎么拍。。照片看起来，都很美丽。。。缘分真的很美妙。。不约而同的把我们大家都拉在一起。。


很奇妙吧。。这个就是缘分。。


从小到大，我总是最顽皮的那个。。。唉。。。回想起来。。以前的我，好“风光”啊。。。呵呵。。不过，慢慢的随着人长大了。。经历了许多事情。。才慢慢的学会了如何去珍惜身边拥有的东西。。

今年的新年，身边的朋友发生了很多事，不是自己“走”， 就是妈妈“走”，再来就是爸爸“走”，更厉害的是全家都“走”。。。一个新年，跟我来搞那么多的pattern.....

人是不是要失去了才会懂得去珍惜呢？

失去爸爸的就说：还没有好好孝顺爸爸，他就先移民了。。。
失去妈妈的就说：还没有好好照顾妈妈，她就先走一步了。。。

其实，要珍惜身边的人，说得比做还来容易。。。

人往往为了忙碌的脚步，一直跑。。一直跑。。。从不会放慢脚步来观察周围身边的人。。
结果叻？ 事情发生了，才来怪当初怎样怎样。。。。
跑那么快做么......

以前的我，总是很叛逆。。。给父母添了不少麻烦。。嘻嘻。。很高兴弟弟还是会那么懂事。。
现在的我。。整天吃那些垃圾食物。。一点营养都没有的东西。。才来知道家里简简单单的菜是多么的美味。。

很快的，自己要往美国飞了。。家里真的是门可罗雀。。可以跟家人和亲戚聚在一起的时间也不多了。。所以，当看回一起去旅行的照片，总是会很怀念。。。真恨时间跑得那么快。。

我每次都会听见别人家跟亲戚都很少来往。。。又很庆幸，不管是阿姨舅舅，还是跟叔叔婶婶的关系都不错。。一定是前世修来的福！！！

就来说说这次金马仑之旅吧。。。

很难得的是，这次的旅行。。大家都能从百忙中抽出了时间来聚聚。。。真是难得。。毕竟大人们都有工作要忙。。很难才能聚在一起。。

这次的旅行。。大家都玩得不亦乐乎，尤其是爸爸妈妈跟阿姨姨丈。。。哈哈！妈妈跟阿姨的感情一路来都很好的。。不管是哪个妹妹，大姐或是哥哥，都会有聊不完的事情。。在一起说起话来，就算是说一天，嘴巴都不会累呢。。现在难得有机会，还不聊个够？？？

一路上就是有说有笑。。也有睡觉。。不过四姨丈最可怜。。没有人可以帮他驾车。。。我跟姐姐就可以轮流帮爸爸驾车。。

在这次旅行里，大家都带着很期待跟开心的心情去玩。。。也许是工作上的压力，玩起来时还显得特别疯呢！ 哈哈！我们吃了玩，玩了吃，累了睡，睡饱了又玩，玩饿了又吃。。。真是享受呢！！

四姨丈说过，人与人可以在一起，都是缘分。。就好像种子一样，要把一粒种子种成一棵大树，5样东西，也就是种子，水，阳光，土壤跟空气。。缺一不可。。只要少了一样，种子就成不了大树了。。
我们能够一起去旅行，就是缘分吧。。

缘分紧紧的把我们扣在一起。。也许前辈子就说好了就是要在这一世再相遇。。

不知多少的缘分才可以换来今生的一次来做你的父母。。不知道前世多少的福分，今世才能跟你做亲戚朋友。。。所以血气方刚的年轻人，脾气不要那么暴躁，总是忙个不停的成年人，有时间就陪陪家人。。。